It's the Waiting

When people ask me what I consider the most difficult aspect of having a deployed kid,  I can easily answer them regardless of what day it is or where he is in the cycle of deployment.  It's the waiting.  For security reasons, extended missions, bad news, weather, many times there will be days of no communication.  It's  been a while so when I walked downstairs this morning to walk to my car I stopped cold in the middle of the sidewalk. Government car.  There it was.  Government car.  G on the plate.  Non-descript.  I looked inside........................empty.......................  Breathing begins again.